DepresionAbuseSuport

There isn't really a good answer. A professional may be able to help you work through it, but the pain never really goes away. If you are truly happy you can forget about it for awhile, but there will always be triggers. Maybe a look someone gives you, maybe something they say, maybe a scent. It helps to talk about it, and if you are still living with your father then it will do wonders to get away from him.

I was abused by my mother when I was about ten or eleven, and simultaneously bullied at school. I used to flinch when people raised their hands and I barely talked to anyone. The last time my mom tried to hurt me, I kicked her into a wall and she never hit me again. I graduated from elementary school and went to a very small middle school, and the kids there didn't make fun of me. Since then I've gotten more confident and become a stronger person. However, I still have the occasional nightmare about my mother and if I really think about the abuse, I cry. 

But I live with my fiance now. He's a great guy and he makes me happy. The memories don't fade, and the pain is still there, but when you find someone who cares about you and get away from the people causing you misery, you can be happy. I'd be happy to listen to anything you want to talk about. I'll be your friend.

Hello there my friend.I'm Darrin.I'm a co-founder with this group.We'll be more than glad to help in any way we can. First off,I'd like to say I'm very proud of you.A lot of people who experience depression and most or all of the related issues surrounding it,have an extremely difficult time in reaching out to someone.The first step is realizing you need help.The 2nd one is reaching out for it.You've taken some very important steps toward a better life for yourself.That's why I'm so very proud of you.As for speaking with you,I will let you choose the methods.It can be in comments,notes,or if you desire we can even use an IM.Whatever you feel most comfortable doing alright?So if you wish to speak with me,then that's fine.I'll be glad to help.If you prefer another admin,then I can seek someone out for you.But no matter what though,you will need to be open and honest about what you tell me.I can't help if I don't know the truth and the whole situation.I did read what you gave the link to.I must say that my heart does go out to you on all of it.I didn't have abusive parents but I did get bullied.For me,it began in 5th grade if memory serves.It continued to high school and finally ended for me in mid 11th grade.When I managed to end it all.The bullying that is.I'm not sure how old you might be at this time or if you're still with the parents you spoke of,but I would like to know what things are like currently for you so I can get a better handle on what's going on now.But there is one truth that is clear,the past is the past.Yes it's painful memories and affects you even now.But with the past itself,there isn't any way I know of to go back to change anything.If that were possible,I'd have done it for myself.But the one thing I do know is that holding all that pain in will only further keep you from a life you definitely deserve.You can't hold it in my friend.You need a very healthy outlet to let this out.Writing about it can help,I won't deny that.But finding someone you can truly trust and telling them all about it plus confiding in them,will help you more than you know. Now when we speak in the future,I would like a first name to go with you.No other names are needed.Like a last one or middle one.A first name will suffice.I'm usually on here from about 1:30am till about 5am on weekdays and evenings till early morning on weekends.However,I can always arrange time to speak with when you need me okay?I work nights,2nd shift,and rarely have little time before work to be online.But I will do what I can nonetheless.So for now,stay strong for me.No matter what.Take care of yourself each day and hopefully we can truly get you on the journey to healing and a much better life.But it won't happen overnight,things like this can take some time.So don't be scared my friend,help is here.All you have to do is reach out for it and you'll find it. So you choose how you wish to speak and we'll go from there okay?Btw,keep writing.It'll help more than you know.Ttys I trust?

 

    To light your path.  P.S. The times I mentioned are eastern standard time.Not sure what time zone you're in.